Hello there!

Hi!

Its definitely been a while! I've been posting some stuff in another site and completely forgot about my blog! (Which I plan on following other people so people can actually start to follow me) Um, so in this other site Im talking about, which I recommend you check it out and sign up! Its such a wonderful place. It allowed me to feel comfortable with myself to post some of my work for the world to see. And I've never showed my stuff to ANYONE. Seriously. And I got really great feed back. The site is www.compassionandpeace.org and the founder is an amazing, talented and truly inspirational musician, Blake Bliss. (heres his youtube channel if your not already suscribed to him:http://www.youtube.com/user/blakebliss ) People there are non-judgemental :)

So yeah, that is what's up with me lately. Im currently reading a book called Nicholas Dane by Melvin Burgess. Its so devastatingly sad. Short little summary is this boy's mom dies and he has no one to take care of him, so they sent him to live in a boys home. He then gets beaten every day and punished for it when he never started those fights. The staff beat him like they would to men. (theyre only children!) And the most horrible thing happens to him, rape. more the once by someone he trusted. So sad. I hate it, but I have to finish it. I would recommend it to you only if you can take harsh,unfair and unjust stories. I havent finished it yet, so I dont know if it ends on a happy note or not. But I think its always better to open your eyes to the truth of things then closing them. Id much rather know whats really going in the world then only knowing the pretty,flowery alls peachy stories. yeah those are important too, but the ugly ones are also not to be forgotten and dismissed. This book is really difficult because of all the things done to this poor innocent 14 year old, but I think Melvin did a fantastic job in showing us the ugly side of how group homes can be for these kids in the system.

Now, on a more brighter note :) I shall post here my first poem to you guys. I alreayd posted this on compassionandpeace. If you like to join you can add me my user is: Allie

Enjoy :) and no hate comments!

Underneath

everyone thinks she has it all

nice hair,nice clothes, nice smile.

but whats going on underneath?

her insides are screamin

no one can hear her cry for help

its clawing,wanting to escape

but she keeps it in check

so that no one will know

how broken she is underneath

she plays the part so perfectly

but underneath skin and bones

she hides the pain from you and me

the sharp silver beckons her

caressing it against her skin

deeper and deeper it goes

telling her it can all end now

all the pain hidden underneath

one day itll all come crashin down

the walls she built all around

will slowly tumble bit by bit

shes scared to face whats underneath

all those demons feeding her hate

when will someone figure her out?

that her "image" is all but fake

she tries to find the light, but doubts

is there someone out there for help?

but no escape card has been dealt

alone, she faces her demons

to no longer be the victim

going deep down to the core

all the pain that she stored

but one day shell find the light

to give her the strength to fight

finally opening her heart

believing shes a work of art

no need to pretend anymore

ending her lifelong war.

Thank you for reading :) I hope you enjoyed it!