Shopping

Hello there :)
Well I just went shopping the other day and not for clothes. I went "journal" shopping :D 
I just finished my journal so I was in the need for a new one to fill. I went to various stores and I realized how friggin expensive some journals can be. 
I went to chaptors to find some really nice ones and I found one that I really wanted. I turn it around to see the price and its 18$! Yes it was really an original looking journal but still. So I ended up buying one at Dollarama xP You see this is what happens when you dont have a job. So hopefully when I do get a job Ill buy that one :)


All in all, even though I didnt end up buying the one I loved, it was a fun day at chaptors :) 
I read the blackest night, which is sooooo good, and in the end I got a pretty decent looking 
journal :)
Now its time to fill it up with my crazy thoughts :D

Sleepy, whyy?

Hello there! 
Its only 9:30pm and Im already sleepy! I think my inner time clock is a bit messed up. I woke up this morning at 6am!! And I dont leave for school until 8:30! God, I hate that. Anywho, this blog is a result of boredom. *Sigh*
I think I should start to talk about something..Um my life right now currently sucks. (well thats new) You see, my mom sent me away to my dad's and its pretty far apart. I have to take a bus to the metro then a bus to go home and it all takes 2 hours. Im just missing home right now. I visited today,saw my doggy and kitty :) I miss them. Its so weird "visiting" your own home. I feel like a guest there. At my own home. And here at my dad's I also feel like a guest.  I sort of feel like I dont belong anywhere right now...But Im sure Ill be able to go home soon. Hopefully.
Ok,well Im out for today. Ill try to write again tomorrow :)
Laters

Hello there!

Hi!

Its definitely been a while! I've been posting some stuff in another site and completely forgot about my blog! (Which I plan on following other people so people can actually start to follow me) Um, so in this other site Im talking about, which I recommend you check it out and sign up! Its such a wonderful place. It allowed me to feel comfortable with myself to post some of my work for the world to see. And I've never showed my stuff to ANYONE. Seriously. And I got really great feed back. The site is www.compassionandpeace.org and the founder is an amazing, talented and truly inspirational musician, Blake Bliss. (heres his youtube channel if your not already suscribed to him:http://www.youtube.com/user/blakebliss ) People there are non-judgemental :)

So yeah, that is what's up with me lately. Im currently reading a book called Nicholas Dane by Melvin Burgess. Its so devastatingly sad. Short little summary is this boy's mom dies and he has no one to take care of him, so they sent him to live in a boys home. He then gets beaten every day and punished for it when he never started those fights. The staff beat him like they would to men. (theyre only children!) And the most horrible thing happens to him, rape. more the once by someone he trusted. So sad. I hate it, but I have to finish it. I would recommend it to you only if you can take harsh,unfair and unjust stories. I havent finished it yet, so I dont know if it ends on a happy note or not. But I think its always better to open your eyes to the truth of things then closing them. Id much rather know whats really going in the world then only knowing the pretty,flowery alls peachy stories. yeah those are important too, but the ugly ones are also not to be forgotten and dismissed. This book is really difficult because of all the things done to this poor innocent 14 year old, but I think Melvin did a fantastic job in showing us the ugly side of how group homes can be for these kids in the system.

Now, on a more brighter note :) I shall post here my first poem to you guys. I alreayd posted this on compassionandpeace. If you like to join you can add me my user is: Allie

Enjoy :) and no hate comments!

Underneath

everyone thinks she has it all

nice hair,nice clothes, nice smile.

but whats going on underneath?

her insides are screamin

no one can hear her cry for help

its clawing,wanting to escape

but she keeps it in check

so that no one will know

how broken she is underneath

she plays the part so perfectly

but underneath skin and bones

she hides the pain from you and me

the sharp silver beckons her

caressing it against her skin

deeper and deeper it goes

telling her it can all end now

all the pain hidden underneath

one day itll all come crashin down

the walls she built all around

will slowly tumble bit by bit

shes scared to face whats underneath

all those demons feeding her hate

when will someone figure her out?

that her "image" is all but fake

she tries to find the light, but doubts

is there someone out there for help?

but no escape card has been dealt

alone, she faces her demons

to no longer be the victim

going deep down to the core

all the pain that she stored

but one day shell find the light

to give her the strength to fight

finally opening her heart

believing shes a work of art

no need to pretend anymore

ending her lifelong war.

Thank you for reading :) I hope you enjoyed it!

 

Well hello there

So it's been a while I haven't been on here...Sigh long story short, it's been a preetty bad couple of weeks. I can't wrtie much today because I should be going home soon (im at the library "studying" xP) I just thought i should drop by here and remind to those who read my blog im not dead...I secretly wished more people would read my blog..maybe i should put it out there more. Like post it on my facebook or something..oh well. Anyways thats it for today, I hope I'll write more in the days to come :)

Seey y'around

Bad Day

I dont know if i mentioned this before but my parents are divorced. Its been like that for...7 years now. And well i live with my mom and visit my dad whenever i want to. Im not forced to go see him. Actually i havent been to his house in about 3 months. Anyways he calls often. Most of time he's really annoying. He always rants and rants about stuff and complains a lot which irritates me. So i stopped calling him, only call when i need to and i stopped wanting to see him. So today he found out i didnt go to school because im sick. (I missed since monday) And he starts to go on and on about why did i miss school. And i understand why he'd like to know so i tell him that im sick. But the thing that annoys me about him is that he keeps on asking and asking the same damn question. So that gets really on my nerves. Then he decides to come to my home just to ask me some more. WHAT THE FUCK?! He freaking lives half an hour away and he's always complaining about he never has money and he decides to drive here just to ask me yet again? God, sometimes i just dont get him. Whatever.

So,i hope you guys had a better day then me. UHG! and tomorrow i have an orthodontist appointment Dx kill me now. I wont be able to eat for next week. Great, soup diet for me again. Whoopidido. 

Ok well im done ranting. laters

What do you do when you're home all day,sick?

I watch the walking dead,facebook and blog all day long. The walking dead is originally a comic book and its really good you should definitely check it out! 

 

 

I hate being sick, the only cool thing is missing school :) The thing is I get really bored pretty easy. So being home all day....it gets preeeetty boring. Yesterday i missed school as well and i was watching this really old show called Boy Meets World (picture below)

I watched this the whole day! This show was pretty big when I was little..around when I was 8ish years old. I absolutely loved this show! The show started when they were in 6th grade to the main guy getting married! And it was always the same people. One of the guy called Shawn, I had a huuuge crush on when i was little xD

Anywaays, This one will be short because i want to go and continue to watch the walking dead xD 

Im out,laters

Why "Revolt Against Conspiracy" ?

So I posted a link to my blog in one of the sites i have an account in. Its a online site sort of thing. And this random dude asked why revolt against conspiracy? what does that have to do with my blog? Well Its because i believe in it. Conspiracy is a plot to carry out some harmful or illegal act (especially a political plot) or a group of conspirators banded together to achieve some harmful or illegal purpose and Im against it. To revolt means to break away from or rise against constituted authority. To me it means to go against the norm,to go against some things the system might do or to simply not do things because people tell you to.  And in my blog ill be writing about some debatable subjects. But that'll be in the future for now itll just be about daily stuff that happens and stuff that pissed me off.

Like today,the guy that asked me this question also told me that it was a waste of people's time and thats why no one reads this. Well his username was nazi something...So first off i dont like him. Knowing the definition behind the word nazi makes me not like him. I mean how could you use that word and be proud to have it as a user when there are horrible things that happened attached to that word? So already i have absolute no respect for him. But i let him say what he wants. People in the internet always will amaze me. I mean i bet he wouldnt even dare say the things he told me to my face.  I find people who say things to put you down or annoy you by saying shitty stuff to you simply have a no self-esteem whatsoever. And honestly i shouldnt hate them for that,i should pity those people. And i wont sink low to theyre point to answer back when its useless. I should just let them feel better about themselves because there words have absolutly no effect on me whatsoever. 

Im sorry this sort of turned into a rant,but i had to. He didnt so much as pissed me off...he irritated me.

Ok,well thats it for now.

im out,laters